Life is too short to hold on to grudges, it is a waste of perfect happiness. Just laugh when you can and let go of the things that you can’t change; love deeply and forgive quickly, take your chances and have no regrets. Take the good and bad with you and learn from your silly mistakes. Sometimes you just need to put the past behind and the sadness aside, be thankful of the things that you have and don’t take it for granted.
I’m not sure where I stand anymore. It’s like the decisions that I make isn’t really what I want. I keep telling myself to move on and look forward, but it’s so hard to picture something so perfect ahead of me; when everything I want is left behind me and is forced to be forgotten. I’m so tired of lying to myself, I’m tired of all of the memories that keep on triggering back whenever I see or hear something that reminds me of you. I’m tired of missing you;
It feels like I’m never going to find someone who I would want to put in as much effort as I did before. I’m so tired of going through the same whole process of chasing someone and getting into that comfortable stage, and thinking that it would just end up falling apart; also having to go through the process of getting hurt and healing up because it seems like forever and I never want to go back there anymore. It scares me to just think about it, and I guess that’s what some people don’t understand. You don’t either, I wish that you’d know what I was thinking and how I really feel. I wish that you’d just get to know me better and not rush me into anything, and maybe we wouldn’t have given up on each other. I’m sorry..
